I don’t think much of this 5 day journey has been a surprise to me. These types of challenges really force you to consider what is important in life and I’ve been on a downward mobility trend for sometime already.
If you’re new here, you might like to read this:
Tell those rich in this world’s wealth to quit being so full of themselves and so obsessed with money, which is here today and gone tomorrow.
Tell them to go after God, who piles on all the riches we could ever manage—to do good, to be rich in helping others, to be extravagantly generous.
If they do that, they’ll build a treasury that will last, gaining life that is truly life.
I don’t know how to write about the food / hunger challenge because in my black and white mind, when you decide to do something you just do it. That doesn’t leave a lot of wiggle room for complaining or opting out…this is not my first fast and so I’ve done the ‘hard work’ on previous fasts and know what it’s about.
But I know that many who try this don’t share my willfullness and this fast is a huge challenge. Something happens inside of you when you really really really want something and can’t have it. It is like a spoiled child jumping up and down. It is easier to quiet that inner child by indulging them.
That in fact is going to be most people’s unidentified struggle. Coming face to face with that ugly inner part that doesn’t care about satisfying anyone but itself….the ugly word we don’t want to hear is SUBMISSION.
For a Christian it is in those moments where God can transform us the most.
I distinctly remember being face down on the carpet , clawing at the carpet even in a tear soaked place talking to God in not so nice words. I felt parts of me from deep within rearing up that I had to tell God he could have…that he was bigger than this single desire, that I believed He could fill me more than food ever could….for me these words had to be audible, spoken out loud…quiet prayers were not going to do it for me…
It’s hard yucky stuff and it’s hard to process that while you are going about your normal day at work and such, but I guess I write that to encourage you that it truly is THAT MOMENT that you have to overcome. When God is in it with you, you MAKE IT THROUGH. And then you make it through the next one and the next one.
This process is something I have used over and over for many areas of my life, but I learned it in fasting.
I’m making this my Works for me Wednesday posting this week – hope it inspires all of you on the list!